Taking time to reflect

When I first began this blog in 2017, I was on the way to start living my dreams of traveling,learning and earning on the road with so many others who had finally decided that enough was enough living the rat race lifestyle. Unfortunately, that thing called life hit me very hard and I lost many things, but nothing compared to when I was alone and reflecting that I had realized I had lost myself years ago.

Marriage,children,being a stay at home mom from time to time I did get a brief job outside the home, but I was never really happy. Being “stuck” in societies meaning of living a great life, having a roof over my head, food,clothes etc. Now don’t get me wrong, I am very grateful for having All of these things but at what cost? It made things even worse that my family was quickly falling apart despite everything I attempted to do while battling my own hidden fears and such. I hard seemed to hit rock bottom and almost allowed myself to succumb to another deep state of depression, I am still dealing with depression none the less, but the past few years as I have been working on myself I have gotten better and stronger at not allowing myself to be overtaken by this state of being. Even though I am currently not with my family, I couldn’t allow myself to miss the opportunities presented to me as well as my own soul and inner nudge pushing me to continue my desire to fulfill my Wanderlust. 

So I continued my searches for ways to do this especially having to start from scratch, with pretty much No money,no support system and head on to my new way of living. I came across seasonal work as a great option to assist me in starting this journey, as many places not only offered a job,but also room and board and meals. So my first stop on this plan is the beautiful Grand Canyon. I’m not much of a hiker so I really didn’t take the opportunity this time around to fully explore all of the beautiful scenery here. Also, I was still in a process of healing so I pretty much stayed in my room unless I was working or getting something to eat. Right now even as I’m typing this I still have a bit of reservations putting this part of my life out into this blog. But I felt I had to for others who have been or might still be in similar situations as me and feel like it’s a no win situation to live the life they dream of. Even if you only do it for a short period of time you will still know that you made that big step and conquered any fears and doubts you have. I don’t know how long this journey will last me, but I do know I am going to allow myself to fully embrace all the adventures that come my way.

 

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